I tried my best, but it's as if I'm treading water.
Sunday, February 14, 2021
Friday, January 29, 2021
A Dream About Grandma
I had a dream last night. I was just arriving to my grandma’s house and sit in the TV room. Then a phone call came from an un-identified number. I pick up the phone and..
It’s my grandma
🧑🏼🦳: halo ade dimana?
👩🏻: ini ade udah sampe eyangmah, di depan tv
🧑🏼🦳: oh eyangmah ngga denger, eyangmah kan udah tua
👩🏻: yaudah ngga papa yangmah, ade di sini ya
I hang up the phone and realize that my grandma has passed away. I call my aunt, who lives in that house also, but she didn’t answer. I check her room and it’s empty. I check my grandma’s room and it’s also empty. I was all alone in that house..
Monday, January 18, 2021
Aldi & Alex
R: main suwit yuk supaya dapet cashback gopay
A: gimana caranya?
R: kamu kirim aku gopay aja terus add as friend
••• setelah transfer gopay link suwit belum muncul •••
R: kok aneh sih? Harusnya udah muncul. Apa jangan jangan aku udah jadi gopay friend kamu kali
A: belum aku kan belum pernah kirim gopay ke kamu. Gopay friend aku paling cuma mantan aku doang
R: coba cek dulu karena harusnya langsung muncul link nya.
••• pas dicek ternyata emang belum friend. Gopay friend cuma ada 2, namanya Aldi & Alex •••
R: oh mantan kamu Aldi?
A: iya sama Alex hehehehehehe
Wednesday, January 13, 2021
Monday, January 11, 2021
Before You Go
Wednesday, January 06, 2021
January Brought Me Back to Imlek Morning in 2017
Never have I ever imagine that I would ask for blood donor due to any emergency situation. Well because who wants to have an emergency? Nobody.
Today, my grandmother is being treated in the ICU and need plasma convalescent donor from B+ blood. It was very hard to find the right donor because until now there’s still no one that suits the criteria for plasma convalescent donor.
Some strangers, who got my announcement, showed up and show their big heart to help giving their blood. This reminds me of one moment back in 2017.
It was on January 28, 2017, 01:00 AM, Tidar (my XLFL facilitator) sent a message in our Line group asking if anyone still awake and willing to help. I was still awake that morning because I just got home from a rehearsal session for Imlek fashion show. I thought if I can help, then why not? Maybe there’s a good reason why God gave me this situation. Maybe this is why the rehearsal session took a very long time until midnight.
Long story short Tidar emailed me and the other XLFL students the next morning and here is what it says.
Subject: A Note on Imlek Morning
This story make me realize that I am actually not bad as a human. I still have empathy (or I don’t know what this is called) deep down in my heart. And in the time like this I see there are a lot of people who actually care to others, and willing to help even if I am a total stranger to them.
I thank God for everything that happen to me, whether it was good or bad, it will lead me to something better :’)